light my way

I am...

stronger than I look
insecure about my image
not worried about my lack of sexual drive
looking for artistic release
wishing I could write better
worried I won't live up to people's expectations
smarter than I give myself credit
both happy and dissappointed with my life choices so far
not comfortable in mainly physical relationships
in and out of love daily
proud of my Mom and Dad
protective of my family
trying to articulate better
an awkward kisser
totally in love with bobby pins thanks to Granny Elsie
wishing I could use bobby pins correctly
a punkish country girl at heart
a closet theatre-geek
a true "slasher" at heart
comfortable with my sexuality...whatever it may turn out to be
in a love/hate relationship with my lanky, androgenous figure
not about to give in to weakness
wishing Quidditch was real
wondering where my Prince Charming is
hoping things turn out all right
my biggest fan at the end of the day

BTW...we may not be moving...Mom and Bruce are going to try to work things out...bastard better not fuck up again...

Tell me this feeling
Lasts 'til forever.
Tell me the bad times
Are clean, washed away!
Please understand that
It's still strange and frightening.
For losers like I've been
It's so hard to say...