light my way

Reaching over
life to life
feeling sugared skin
my poor baby
kissed him so
to ashamed to lift his chin

a voice is speaking
he's the prophet
blinded by the light
a heart is breaking
I can hear it
dropped when gone beyond my sight

hey there, Mr. Talk Too Much
what's in store for us now?

I don't know how to speak to you
I don't know how to trust you
I don't kow how to live for you
I don't know how to love you
the gentleman who fell before the court

I feel your closeness
like a shotgun
a chill within my soul
I touch your finger
know your darkness
your passion takes its' toll

can't see that this talk is cheap
let the suffering go

I don't know how to speak to you
I don't know how to trust you
I don't kow how to live for you
I don't know how to love you
the gentleman who fell before the court

Hrm. Things are becoming complicated...but in a good way, I think. James and I talked for about an hour tonight about a lot of things; us, mainly. He also tried to teach me to fight, which didn't go so well but eh, what can ya do?

I fell asleep today and napped for about 2 and a half hours after school. I had a horrible dream that involved me and James getting into this big argument over him driving too fast and not looking when he crossed train tracks. It was not a good dream ~_~...but then James came by my house at 9 so everything was good.

Everyday it seems I look forward to spending all afternoon with him. I felt so...disjointed today because he was at work from 4 to 9. Maybe that explains the 2 hour-nap and bad dream. I really do like him a lot, and it's going to be tough when I go to Longwood in August. And I want to go to beach week so bad this year, and I just wanna be like, "Come on James, we're going to some little island in the Greek Isles for a week or two." But that'll never happen. Why? I dunno. It just won't. Like a lot of other things that don't happen in my life...but, I digress.

On a slightly unrelated topic...this is quickly becoming my second most favorite song, right behing "Stay (Faraway! So Close)" by U2. Yes, I know this song is about a stalker, but the emotion Dave Matthews imbues in it makes my chest constrict. And, it seems like an ideally wonderful song for getting up to something *grin*...

Also, definitly check out the original lyrics to Crash Into Me...simply delicious.

Crazy, how it feels tonight.
Crazy, how you make it all alright, love.

Crush me,
With those things you do
And I'll do for you
Anything, too, oh...

Sitting, smoking, feeling high...

And in this moment
Oh, it feels so right...

Lovely lady, I am at your feet,
Oh, God, I want you so badly.
And I wonder this:
Could tomorrow be so wonderous
As you lay sleeping?

Let's go drive 'til morning comes,
Watch the sunrise and fill our souls up,
And drink some wine 'till we get drunk.
Yeah...

It's crazy, I'm thinking,
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down?
And is this real, or am I dreaming?

Lovely lady, let me drink you, please.
Won't spill a drop, no, I promise you
Lying under this spell you cast on me
Each moment the more I love you.

Crush me, come on
Oh, yeah...

It's crazy, I'm thinking
Just knowing that the world is round
And here I'm dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down?
Is this real at all, or am I dreaming?

Lovely lady, I will treat you sweetly
Adore you, I mean...
You Crush me,
And it's times like these
When I think that feeling
I know how I love you.

Come on, come on, baby...

It's crazy, I'm thinking
Just as long as you're around
And here I'll be dancing on the ground
Am I right side up or upside down?
To each other we'll be facing
My love, my love,
We'll beat back the pain we've found
You know I mean to tell you
All the things I've been thinking
Deep inside, my friend.
Each moment the more I love you.

Crush me, come on, baby...

So much you have given up
That I would give you back, again and again.
Oh, my love, many now hold you,
But please, please, just let me, always.

Another weekend of hanging out with James...^_^

We went to Longwood on Saturday, and he seemed to live it well enough. So that's good...Saw Dreamcatcher again with him. It was definitely just as awesome as the first time.

Ugh, I smell heavily of perfume. Got a little tester crazy at Sears today X.x...

I'm trying to think of something to say...but nothing is really coming to the forefront of my mind. Blargh...I'll try to write more later...

Would you want me when I'm not myself?
Wait it out while I am someone else?
And I, in time, will come around
I always do for you
Suppose I said
You're my saving grace?