9.28.2002
She [Jesse] called me today, for no obvious reason.. "So, I hear a lot of things have been going on in your life."
I sorta hedged at that. I've gotten sick of the topic.
"I'm sure you've heard it all from Michael."
She paused... "I haven't heard your side."
That's why I adore her. That's it right there. I proceeded to tell her my side, goddamnit. I don't know if she backs me up or not, and it really doesn't matter. She cared that much that she asked me. That's such a big thing... she aww-ed in all the right places, a sign of a really good listener.. and didn't make a big deal out of it. Just wanted to hear.
Not in any way dragging Jesse into this because she has nothing to do with why I'm mad.
That fucking pisses me off. I fucking asked politely for Kelli to explain her side...and what did she do? Get defensive and say she didn't have to justify herself to anyone. ¬.¬'' Yeah...I didn't say anything like that. I told her I was tired of the bullshit. She said she hadn't realized her life was bullshit. Putting words in my mouth. Gee, thanks Kelli. She said she didn't ask me to fix anything. Sorry for giving a flying fuck about my friends. Next time you need help, don't ask me for a single fucking thing. I didn't do anything to deserve treatment like that. What, are you mad because I'm acting nice to Michael? Please, clue me in. Because as I've said I don't know how many fucking times, I'm obviously stupid or something because I just don't get it.
Moving on...
Lily is the best person in the world ^^ I just lurve her. She's open, honest, and trusts me. She trusts me enough that tonight she told me a lot of personal things that I'm not going to repeat her out of total respect. She makes me want to go to Midlothian High just to get away from all the bullshit here ^_^''
Tuesday went and bought the End of Evangelion and Utena movie DVDs. Both made no sense but were stunning nonetheless ^_^
Need to get dress for homecoming o.o and for convocation x.x...
Okay, enough for tonight...kinda drained...
Believe me,
I don't wanna go
And it'll grieve me
'Cause I love you so
We both know
Wish I could
Say the right words
(Wish I could trust)
To lead you
(That it was just this once)
Through this land
(But I must do what I must...)
Wish I could play the father
(I can't adjust to this disgust.)
And take you by the hand
(We're done) and I just wish I could stay
Wish I could stay
Wish I could stay here
Wish I could stay here
Wish I could stay
I sorta hedged at that. I've gotten sick of the topic.
"I'm sure you've heard it all from Michael."
She paused... "I haven't heard your side."
That's why I adore her. That's it right there. I proceeded to tell her my side, goddamnit. I don't know if she backs me up or not, and it really doesn't matter. She cared that much that she asked me. That's such a big thing... she aww-ed in all the right places, a sign of a really good listener.. and didn't make a big deal out of it. Just wanted to hear.
Not in any way dragging Jesse into this because she has nothing to do with why I'm mad.
That fucking pisses me off. I fucking asked politely for Kelli to explain her side...and what did she do? Get defensive and say she didn't have to justify herself to anyone. ¬.¬'' Yeah...I didn't say anything like that. I told her I was tired of the bullshit. She said she hadn't realized her life was bullshit. Putting words in my mouth. Gee, thanks Kelli. She said she didn't ask me to fix anything. Sorry for giving a flying fuck about my friends. Next time you need help, don't ask me for a single fucking thing. I didn't do anything to deserve treatment like that. What, are you mad because I'm acting nice to Michael? Please, clue me in. Because as I've said I don't know how many fucking times, I'm obviously stupid or something because I just don't get it.
Moving on...
Lily is the best person in the world ^^ I just lurve her. She's open, honest, and trusts me. She trusts me enough that tonight she told me a lot of personal things that I'm not going to repeat her out of total respect. She makes me want to go to Midlothian High just to get away from all the bullshit here ^_^''
Tuesday went and bought the End of Evangelion and Utena movie DVDs. Both made no sense but were stunning nonetheless ^_^
Need to get dress for homecoming o.o and for convocation x.x...
Okay, enough for tonight...kinda drained...
Believe me,
I don't wanna go
And it'll grieve me
'Cause I love you so
We both know
Wish I could
Say the right words
(Wish I could trust)
To lead you
(That it was just this once)
Through this land
(But I must do what I must...)
Wish I could play the father
(I can't adjust to this disgust.)
And take you by the hand
(We're done) and I just wish I could stay
Wish I could stay
Wish I could stay here
Wish I could stay here
Wish I could stay
